A bit of this and that.

?!

2010-07-27T00:51:00.002+08:00

I just wanna be happy. Is it so difficult?!

Nt tt I'm unhappy but I'm sure I can do btr.

It's nv enough, is it?

Sleep.

2010-07-22T02:19:00.002+08:00

Can I take unpaid leave & catch up on all my lost slp since 2008?

Restart.

2010-07-18T02:05:00.002+08:00

Hi to whoever who still bothers to read my blog.

In case I didn't mention, I shifted. Yes. I shifted hse, agn. I'm still in e East though.

It's like I pressed e 'Restart' button in my life cus shifting is no feat. This is prolly e first time I'm blogging frm my new place & I've been here for what, like 2 months or smth? I finally shifted to my permanent room cus e mini reno was still going on. Fyi, only the painting & e toilet is done. So for now, I'm living my childhood dream of 'living out of e suitcase' & it's nt really a dream anymore cus in actual fact, it sucks big time. Those who know me should know tt I have a slight case of OCD so this mess tt I'm living in is killing me softly! I couldn't stand it anymore so I went down to IKEA to gt my wardrobe & bookcase (it's called a bookcase but I'm definitely not going to use it as one). WORK IN PROGRESS, STILL.

Aiight, hitting e sheets aft my lousy attempt to pack.

Night ya'll.

Determination.

2010-07-13T22:24:00.004+08:00

It's do or die; no room for anymore tries.

I have set my head & heart to do this so I will & I must.

I rly can just drop it & not care.

Determination Baby;

Tt's all we need.

Life At Work-Guests Tt Make Me Roll My Eyes.

2010-07-13T21:50:00.005+08:00

Guest: Can you make some recommendations?

Me: I'd be happy to. But before that, may I just check if there is anything tt you dont take? Any meat? How abt spicy food?

Guest: Absolutely no! We take everything & anything!

Me: Tt's gd. For a start, I recommend the Fish Maw w/ blablabla. It's pretty..

Guest: Oh no! He dont take fish maw.

Me: In that case, how abt the Sliced Pork w/ blablaba..

Guest: We dont fancy pork.

Me: E egg plant is one of our signature dish as well.

Guest: We hate egg plant.

Blablabla.

Me: For e mains, I will definitely suggest the Crispy Lamb blablabla.

Guest: Oh we dont like e smell.

Me: How abt e Beef w/ blablabla..

Guest: We cannot take beef.

SRSLY? I thought they take everything & anything?!

Lingering Thought.

2010-06-29T20:49:00.000+08:00

Will we?

I Wanna.

2010-05-22T00:22:00.003+08:00

Honestly, I have been e greatest procrastinator ever.

I have been procrastinating for the longest time & I am still doing so despite e fact tt some peeps have kindly brought tt topic up to me.

What e hell is wrong? Isdk.

I have been asking myself e same qns over & over again. W do I see myself in e future? & I always dont gt any concrete ans on this.

I can only conclude tt I committed to a full time job way too soon cus it wrecked my initial plans.

As some may know, my initial plan was to work part time like mad for 2 years, save, travel to places tt I wanna visit,gain some work experience in Europe & use e rest for my University studies.

Till one fine day someone brainwashed me into working full time & now, I am stuck. Big time. I am so used to e working life now idkh I'll manage as a student if I ever go back to sch. Nt tt I am materialistic but let's just say tt I enjoy earning my own keep & nt having to scrimp & save just to buy smth.

DIGRESS: I saw a cat biting crazily at a bird tday. I think e bird ttly deserve it cus I am pretty sure if e bird didn't provoke e cat, it wouldn't be so pissed off as to bite it. Gd job cat. Cont'. End of digression.

You know, working part time rly have its pros & cons. At least working part time allows me to be in full ctrl of life but now? Work is taking ctrl of it.

I keep lamenting to everyone tt "I am only 21!"

Almost all my friends are asking why am I working so hard cus I hardly have time for em. & honestly, I feel bad cus I missed so many outings, so many birthdays & what nt.

I'm sucked in this nv ending hole & I just wanna gt out of it but I cant cus I've alr climbed e ladder. Iykwim cus I have this love hate on off rlship w/ my current job. Paying me gd, 5.5 day for this position, gt to do events. Downside? Frigging long hrs, feel like killing some colleagues & no job satisfaction anym.

I tried leaving. I have had a few job offers but I didn't take up any cus I was simply waiting for tt "OK, I WANNA DO THIS, LET'S GO" moment or in short, I call it my Eureka! moment.

& srsly, if I dont gt my Eureka moment soon, I may just grow old & die w/ this job.

I kid.

I dont need advise, rly I dont. I am just lamenting. Tt's what a true blue procrastinator does isn't it?

I rly rly wonder how different life is now if I took e opportunity to Europe.

I wanna do so many many stuff while I'm young.

I wanna study.

I wanna gt my braces done. (At least I'm working on this one. Appt on 2nd of June!)

I wanna cont' learning hip hop.

I wanna learn French.

I wanna learn how to cook.

I wanna blog regularly.

I wanna fix my computer.

I wanna reorganize wtev I can.

I wanna gt my diving license. (Planning for it)

I wanna learn CPR.

I wanna go to Vietnam. (Fresh one, I know)

I wanna go to Europe.

I wanna work in Europe.

I wanna help people.

I wanna shop at Trioon, egg3 & Alphabelts.

I wanna bungee jump & sky dive.

I wanna remove all scars from my legs.

I wanna try to fly.

I wanna rest well.

I wanna bake nice things.

I wanna do up my room nicely.

I wanna earn more money.

I wanna learn photography.

I wanna gt a polaroid.

I wanna capture nice pictures.

I wanna learn swimming all over again.

I wanna watch all e dramas & videos which I missed out on.

I wanna learn bartending.

I wanna gt a barista cert.

I wanna learn more abt beverages.

I wanna explore F&B establishments.

I wanna learn to operate many electronics stuff.

I wanna know e toolbox inside out.

I wanna know how to fix things.

I wanna do house work.

I wanna be a gd daughter.

I wanna gt a tattoo.

I wanna gt a fresh haircut.

I wanna fix my nose.

I wanna gt an even tan.

I wanna learn to handle personal matters more graciously.

I wanna gt a new computer.

Doesn't seem far fetched right? All of e above needs TIME. & I dont have time. Anw, most imptly..

I wanna gt my ass up to fulfil all tt bfr it's too late.

Yes I am v sane when typing this tyvm.

Cliched.

2010-05-21T22:56:00.000+08:00

Ignorance is bliss.

Indeed.

Long Awaited Getaway.

2010-05-16T10:33:00.003+08:00

"What happens in Phuket,stays in Phuket." Rly?

Note to self: Pls start packing cus your flight is in less than a day.

Happy Pill.

2010-05-02T03:37:00.000+08:00

All over again.

Life At Work-Bloody Irritating Guests.

2010-04-29T00:38:00.002+08:00

*Guests trying hard to act real cute w/ tt inquisitive face; walking in*

Guest: Wow.. Wow.. What's this place? Is it a museum?

Me: Oh it's a restaurant!

Guest: You mean this place is a restaurant & nt a museum?

Me: Yes, this is a restaurant.

Guest: Wow.. It's beautiful.. E whole place is one restaurant?

Me: Yes, e whole building is JUST ONE RESTAURANT.

Guest: Wow.. You mean e restaurant takes up e whole place?

Me: Urms yeah, e WHOLE BUILDING is our restaurant.

Guest: Wow.. It's amazing..

Me: *refusing to respond*

Guest: Wow.. It's rly pretty & grand.

Me: Thanks.

Guest: It rly looks like a museum.

WTP. KILL ME ALR.

I Like You Man!

2010-04-27T17:36:00.002+08:00

*high five*

Babe.

2010-04-19T01:42:00.000+08:00

We have had so much fun tgt.

Gone.

2010-04-15T10:28:00.003+08:00

If I could, I would've flush your face down e toilet bowl so you'll nv come back up.

But I'm glad tt you're getting smaller cus right now,I cant see you.& I dont want to.Ever.Tyvm.

Positive is THE Word.

2010-04-14T01:59:00.003+08:00

I just need a world class positive wake up call to make things easier for myself.

There I have it.

Faith.

2010-04-11T03:06:00.002+08:00

I'm having one of those nights.

One of those nights wby I dont feel like heading home but cant think of anyw to go. Movie timings ain't right; my damn water heater is down so jogging is out of e qns, too full for a meal. Gees.

One of those nights wby thoughts just come to me. Work, money, personal matters & e nv ending list.

& one of those nights tt I feel like letting it all out to someone but always decide against it cus no one is of help.

So I cried.

It wasn't one of e tears flowing down e cheeks kinda cry. More like a couldn't help but cant breathe properly kinda cry, letting out painful sounds at some point in time kinda cry. The kind of cry wby tears just cant stop flowing no matter how hard I try. & aft I successfully stop e tears, within e next few mins, e damn drama will start all over again.

Yes, as everyone knows, I cry easily.

I am a frigging cry baby.

I dont even rmb crying this badly; I think e last time I cried so bad was when one of my favourite uncles passed on.

It was rly painful; like someone punching me rly rly hard on my chest, so hard tt I cant feel anything at all. Tt it's all empty & has left a permanent hole in heart. Void, empty & v much alone.

Tt excruciating pain tt I cant put into words, neither can anyone. I felt so frustrated tt I had to squeeze onto my own arm rly hard to relief it.. But what is tt pain on my arm compared to tt pain tt I was going through? Almost ntg.

Many thoughts came running to me but I just couldn't decide on what to do at tt point in time & letting e tears out seems to be a much better option than deciding on anything concrete.

I keep telling myself tt I will pick myself up no matter what. I have done so so many many many times before so this is just one of it.

I feel like one of those boxes tt has a big red scotch tape over it which says FRAGILE. But actually, most of e time, it's just a false alarm. Ntg in tt box is tt fragile but it is just a warning for everyone handling it to be extra careful. I guess e box just wants a lil more attention, care & concern.

But I am a strong girl. I believe I am one. So I'll def pick myself up from e mess & be e scotch tape tt's protecting e box.

I'm just having one of those nights..

Rly.

:/

2010-03-30T00:36:00.001+08:00

I know. I will blog soon.

Trust.

2010-03-14T11:37:00.003+08:00

I believe tt it takes years to build up trust & just seconds to shatter it entirely.

But really, what the heck is trust?

To me, trust may just be a 11 letter word.

Non-existent.

Fact.

2010-02-20T01:08:00.000+08:00

There is no forever & ever, you know?

Gold Digger.

2010-02-11T11:38:00.001+08:00

If you wanna be all bad & what nt, go ahead.

Just dont gt me involved.

iPod Touch.

2010-02-08T01:54:00.002+08:00

To welcome my iPod Touch, I am going to devote one whole day to rename, rearrange & revise all my files esp my songs on my laptop. But firstly, I need to reformat it.

Ugh :/

Life At Work-An Interesting Indian Couple.

2010-02-08T00:57:00.002+08:00

*Pouring e last glass of wine for em*

Indian Guy: E last drop's for e lady cus e one who takes e last drop of wine will find a v handsome husband.

Indian Lady: *Looks at e husband* I alr do. So e last drop is for you.

Indian Guy: No, it's for you.

Ok. So it went on for quite a bit till I gt a tad irritated..

Me: Ok, I shall have e last drop of wine.

& they laughed.

Indian Guy: You are a nice girl.

Me: Thanks.

Hmm, I'm def nt comfy w/ someone saying tt I'm a nice girl. Def feels weird. Lol.

Anw so as they were leaving, they came to look for me & said thanks for e evening.

Indian Lady: Hope you will gt tt handsome man to be your husband soon.

Me: I'm only 21! Haven't found tt someone yet, how can I gt married?!

Indian Lady: You can meet tt guy now & marry him 5 years ltr!

Me: *Laughs* Maybe tt might work huh.

Indian Lady: Yeah. But of cus, being handsome is nt e most impt thing.

Me: Of cus nt!

Indian Guy: Then what is most impt?

I thought for quite some time & couldn't think of what is most impt cus many adjectives just came flying into my brains.

"Humorous", "caring", "honest", "loving", "studious" all these random adjectives just came to mind. Ok, dont ask me why did studious came into e picture ok.

Indian Lady: Faithfulness..?

& then it hit me like a storm.

Me: OMG YES.

Indian Guy: Tt's nt most impt.

*Rolls eyes at him*

Me: Tt is v v v impt.

Men will be men isn't it?

Indian Lady: Indeed it is. *Proceeds to pinch husband*

Indian Guy: God will bless you young lady.

Irdk how to react but just to smile to acknowledge em.

Thanks to em, it gt me thinking what is most impt & my mind just couldn't tear away from e word "faithfulness" so yeah, faithfulness is indeed e most impt thing one could ask for.

<3

Psyched.

2010-01-21T03:42:00.002+08:00

Hi peeps.

I am psyched abt tmr cus I gt to meet all e peeps tt are impt to me in one single day.

On top of tt, I gt to feast at Top Table, Don Quijote(Spanish food like finally!) & also a much awaited k session! Wanna squeeze in a movie in btwn if time allows!

Will update then & prolly upload pics on Facebook. Lol.

Till then,take care.

Cheap Thrill.

2010-01-15T00:31:00.010+08:00

E ultimate cheap thrill is to wake up in e middle of e night to find out tt you actually have another 5 more hrs of slp or more.

& I love cheap thrill.

The First of 2010.

2010-01-01T15:56:00.004+08:00

Hi guys.

I rmb saying tt I was inspired to do up an uber long end of year post for 2009 but I guess tt's nv ever possible cus it's alr e first day of 2010. Lol. So let me just consolidate my 2009.

In e earlier part of 2009, I was really struggling v v hard w/ sch. Honestly, I've nv put in much effort in sch cus I kinda dread it but I know I have to go ahead w/ it no matter what. & e last semester was a killer. Endless assignments, tests, interviews(?!), presentations, exams kept coming in like nobody's business. From e start of e sem right till e end of it, most of us were jaded from all e work. E final sem, many of us became v afraid of failing certain modules cus if we do, we'll have to go through another grueling 6 months of pain(*ahem* Destination). Aft all tt project crap, we had a group talk tgt & it was hurting to hear what peeps have to say abt your work. Well, obviously it wasn't gd. & all tt I was feeling was guilt cus I put in effort, I did, but nt my 100%. Tt's when I know if you wanna do smth, do it w/ 100% effort cus in tt way, e results will be so so much better.

& during tt period, I fell in love, deeply. Yes, I did. W/ harem pants & Diana Vickers <3

Then exams came. Mugged like hell cus I nv ever really study for any tests or exams but it's e FINAL exams so, no choice right? Exams period zoomed right by us & before we know it, we've came to e end of our journey; e journey to gt our diploma.. It was really bittersweet cus we all love poly life dont we? Lol. But yeah, we all had to part w/ each other & kinda just move on w/ our respective lives.

& in Feb, SantaIan visited Singapore. Brought him arnd, late night walks arnd town, movie marathon-ed like mad etc. E first(& I guess final) cyber friend(ok, I sound damn gross) tt I'll meet up w/. & no, he's nt a freak (:

March was when I gt real busy at work. Worked like a dog(acc. to LemonTartShane & LoonyLinus) doing part time, saving up for my holidays, buying a new phone etc. No time for social life at all. & then I miss my friends, a lot.

Came my Redang trip in April! Went to Redang w/ KinkyKim & HazelHearts(ok, cant gt any original I know). Honestly, at first I thought it was a lil of a weird combination cus you know, lol, we've nv really hang out tgt outside of sch tgt & now suddenly, we have to travel tgt. & this is e first time I'm travelling w/ both of em so isdk what kinda personalities will I expect to see but luckily, we were cool. Haha. Enjoyed e company, e endless apple & orange juice(no ice pls), tried to snorkel, realize tt I'm a lousy swimmer, tt I cant take a nice pic underwater, gt a frigging fabulous tan(which eventually wore off), e clear waters, e starry nights & of cus, e super funny Auntie who clubbed alone & danced tai chi on e dance floor. It was indeed a fulfilling trip. This is also kinda e first time tt I'm travelling w/ friends proper so we did tonnes of research(mainly on pricing, lol). & I'm proud to say tt I love researching for all tt travelling stuff so lazy peeps, you can travel w/ me (:

In May, Jinngy, Feng & I flew to Bangkok, nt to bang some cocks but to shop like hell (: & we did. We were so mad at tt time cus we brought our luggage to work & went to airport straight aft work. Talk abt being a workaholic. Oh, & yes, another round of seaching for dirt cheap flights & accommodations. Call it cheap thrill but I do appreciate gd deals, esp when it comes to travelling. Quite different from Redang cus in Bangkok, there was no time to waste! No time to R&R or gt a tan thought Bangkok is super hot. We shopped religiously every single day! Gt ourselves fabulous Thai food(I miss you green curry!), went for massages every night, night markets, Tuk Tuk rides, learnt bargaining skills from Feng. & yes, I love Bangkok. This is also e month whereby I started full time in my current job. Yes, I gt stuck in it..

Celebrated CrappyKat's 19th at La Cantina. Realized tt working life made my spending habits mad. V willing to spend on F&B now & e material gds. Shopped like crazy & realized tt I am nt ttly in ctrl of my spending tt I have to borrow from my Bro at e end of e month. So much so tt he say tt he should open up a bank for me. Dang. Guilty pang.

July was a tough month. Well, to put it blantly, it's prolly e worst month ever. Work & what nt was killing me. Tt month, I was void of feelings & emotions. It was like I hit my all time low in life.. Gt my much needed wake up call in a matter of time. Gt over issues & dropped em easily. July was e month whereby I gt to know myself better; tt if I set my mind to do smth, I am mentally strong enough to go through w/ it & tt ntg can bring me down so bad, ever. Tt's when I told myself tt I am a v v strong girl.

Witness a v v sweet but typical wedding proposal..

In August, work mates surprised my Bro w/ a bday bash at PartyWorld(tt's like our usual hang out) & sad to say, it's e first time I celebrated my Bro's bday properly. & he said tt he was so touched tt he almost cried. OMG. Btw, I started full time w/ my Bro at e same work place. Working w/ him realized how much I love him & how much I can dislike him. Wtev it is, as a family member, my Bro is a v v gd brother & I will nv trade him for any other person.

In August, I lost a close friend. No, nt in tt sense but yeah, we're nt friends now. Smth happened & yeah, it killed our friendship. Many a times, things happen & it's really beyond our ctrl. I'll nt try to explain or wtsev cus I know, it's too late & isdk if it's ever worth it. Close friends of mine should know what happened & it was really quite a painful period.

I travelled to Bintan. Go figure. But urms, dont go.

September was hell at work because JoeJoeArmani left. He taught us a lot at work & now we're left to e care of mck. Working can gt v v frustrating. Learnt tt it's nv easy to be supervising staff, esp when our work environment is pretty much weird in e sense tt we see e owners of e restaurant almost everyday. Work gt v v suffocating for me.

November was when I satisfied my shoes cravings. Bought 2 pairs of shoes which I lusted for quite a while & man, it feels great (: Also, I steped into e kitchen. Learnt to cut some simple stuff & prep for some dishes. But no, I still cant cook. But I see potential in myself tt I can actually light e damn stove & cook some edible.

Christmas came. So suddenly. Suddenly miss my friends a lot & last week, meet ups w/ em were fulfilling! Had a really gd & long chat w/ KinkyKim at Spize. Met up w/ CrappyKat for lunch around my work place & I'm happy tt she's v much happily in love. Mini surprised Jinggy w/ e food tt she loves at her work place. Worked w/ Alicia e Mousey. Came to realize tt my close friends are indeed e peeps who will stay in my life. Iykwim. We're all doing different stuff right now but we still bother to make time for each other to meet up & chat, update on each others' lives. These are e peeps whom I know tt will be there for me, always, at e end of e day.

Tt's how my 2009 went by.

I guess 2009 was nt a v smooth sailing year for me but of cus, it wasn't bad to me either. As usual, learnt a few lessons here & there, committed mistakes which I told myself I will nv again, caught e travel bug.

Perhaps I committed to a full time job way too early.

Perhaps I made wrong judgements.

Perhaps I took some peeps for granted.

But I know, wtev happened really just happened for some reasons. Some I may know why but some, I've yet to discover.

I am excited abt 2010, really I am. I'm positive abt it. There's so many things tt I wanna do & I guess 2010 could be e year. Why nt? & I realized tt my New Year resolutions are nt specific enough every year so here goes:

My New Year resolutions for 2010:

Spend more quality time w/ my family: Spend more time at home or bring em out for meals.

Appreciate my loved ones more: Put in more effort in maintaining e rls & nt take anyone of em for granted. Yes, I will try to go out w/ friends more often. I wont let work be an excuse.

Save money: At least S$500 a month.

Exercise & lose e stummy: Say jog or swim at least once a week & religiously do 50 leg raise everyday.

Put in more effort in my health & face: Eat fruits everyday, wax, do my brows, body srub, gt scar cream for my legs, eye masks.

Go on at least a holiday & be adventurous: Hong Kong/ Langkawi/ (best if) Europe. I wanna dive, sky dive & what nt.

Be more independent: Learn how to cook(I'm srs abt this), learn how to do basic housework(pls dont roll your eyes too) & try out new baking recipes.

Be more responsible at work: Put in more effort at work, dont gt distracted easily & dont procrastinate.

Nt be a wood pecker: Once smth happened, let go of it graciously & nt peck on e issue.

Stay happy: Love myself more & be happier.

Yeah, tt's abt it. Long list there but I hope I can achieve all of em cus I really want to (: Overall, I really wanna be a more responsible, cool & a happier person.

I am looking fwd to 2010 cus I want it to be better than 2009. 2009 alr passed & all I can do is to learn from those mistakes & nt commit em, ever. & I know it all requires effort for 2010 to be great but I'm willing to do so cus it'll be worth it.

Gd night folks.

P.S.: I'm laughing w/ my partner.

I Love You.

2009-12-27T03:46:00.001+08:00

Saying I love you w/o e word 'I' has no meaning.

2009 New Year Resolution.

2009-12-26T23:27:00.005+08:00

Hi guys.

Here's e obligatory review of this year's resolution.

So here goes. LOL:

For 2009, I'm going to keep it simple.

spend more time w/ my family - Managed to spend more time w/ my family as compared to e past year I would say. Nt really spend more time at home cus of work (ok, dont roll your eyes alr) but did had decent meals tgt,Wii sessions & what nt

save more money - A frigging yes, like finally. I opened an UOB account for savings only.

exercise more - Ok. This is srsly on & off so no, I did nt achieve this. UGH!

have a better diet - Hmm. Now I think this resolution is a lil lame. Haha.

go on holiday(s) - Oh yes! (: No Europe ): but did go to nearer places like Redang, Bangkok & Bintan!

let loose & enjoy - Sadly, nt really. I guess it's hard to phrase it but nah, I didn't manage to let loose. No dirty thoughts pls.

be more responsible - At work, yes. Personal life, can be improved.

& of cus, be happy - Yes I am, more so this year (:

I'm writing this now cus I'll be frigging busy at work on e 31st :/ Le sigh. Other than birthdays, I look fwd to e New Year as well. Cant believe I'm going to spend New Years Eve at work!!!!! Super sjp.

Anw, pls enjoy e last 5 days of 2009 cus 2010 will be coming alr. I dont care those who say New Year resolutions are lame or dumb, a new year is still a new year. In any case, it's just different ok?! So, let us all embrace 2010 w/ hope tt it'll be much better than 2009 ((:

Toodles.

Integrity and Honesty.

2009-12-26T23:12:00.003+08:00

Integrity is telling yourself e truth &

Honesty is telling e truth to others.

Christmas Bells.

2009-12-24T00:25:00.004+08:00

Hey guys.

It's e time of e year again. Yes, e mad crazy Christmas present shopping, e Christmas decor, awesome Christmas trees, Christmas songs playing practically everyw, Christmas fairs at almost every shopping outlet. Yes, it's Christmas time,again.

I've nv been a huge fan of Christmas, well maybe cus I'm nt even a Christian to begin w/. Also, I'm always working during every Christmas & I'm nt e celebrate in big crowds kinda person.

But this year is slightly different. Been to a couple of Christmas fairs, went to see Christmas trees & oh, I can memorize a few Christmas songs by now alr. Heck, I'm even going for a Christmas hse party of some sort. But of cus, nt e sleazy parties where peeps are out to gt drunk w/ e booze. It's actually a decent party or rather, gt tgt.

I've nv had a thing for Christmas but this year, it's slightly different. Also, Christmas is a v gd excuse (well for me, idk abt you) to gt tgt w/ your family, isn't it?

& here's my obligatory Chrismas wish list:
for my laptop to reformat
iPod Touch (I know, it's been here since years)
more clothes (!!!)
Canon camera <3
or a new laptop will do
to smile more
listen better
loosen grip
solve e knot
appreciate peeps who deserves to be more

Tt's abt it folks.

& I'm planning for a v long end of year post so urms, hope tt comes true. I am inspired though. Haha.

Gd night guys.

P.S.: Should have, long ago.

P.P.S.: (:

Canon Dream.

2009-12-21T02:30:00.002+08:00

Thinking Of You.

2009-12-21T02:15:00.003+08:00

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...

by Katy Perry.

2011 Dream.

2009-12-12T20:17:00.001+08:00

Trivia.

2009-12-12T19:53:00.002+08:00

Do you know what is worse than bothering too much?

Nt bothering at all.

Decision.

2009-12-08T00:23:00.001+08:00

If this starts, it will be a vicious cycle.

Flipping Pages.

2009-12-07T00:49:00.003+08:00

Hi guys.

It's goodbye weekend & hello hellish week at work. Le sigh.

Anw, I have this habit of reading my old posts every now & then. Quite interesting to be reading what was I doing at this time of e year a year ago, 2 years ago or even 3 years ago. V v interesting. Can spark some memories (gd & bad) & evoke some emotions. Hmm.. Haha!

SO, e obligatory Christmas wishlist.. Hmm.. Let me think hard abt this one..

Till then.

P.S.: Sometimes, I wish tt..

P.P.S.: Pls let it go away.

In Your Bones.

2009-12-07T00:24:00.001+08:00

Before you insult others, always rmb to do a double take of yourself.

Make Peace.

2009-12-05T10:13:00.003+08:00

If you die, I'd regret.

A Million Things.

2009-11-29T01:44:00.002+08:00

Hi guys or whoever reads my blog.

Yeah yeah, I know my blog is dead/boring/nt interesting at all cus I haven't been blogging & everytime I blog, there isn't any pictures w/ it. I know blogging w/ pictures makes everything more interesting but it is a chore to upload photos one by one. & w/ a genius photo upload program by Facebook, I really cant be bothered to upload so many pictures onto my blog.

Anw, I haven't been blogging cus of a few reasons:

Work. Ok. You guys can stop rolling your eyes. I know many peeps think tt I'm mad to be selling my life to work cus of e long hrs tt I have to spend at work. But still, a job feeds me, & e occasional materialistic side of me. How would I have gt tt Aldo flats & tt Diesel flats if nt for work? But every morning, I leave home at abt 10am latest & gt back at 12am earliest. Tt is really quite sad. Totally no social life; zilch. Many peeps prolly give up asking me out except for some nice friends. Srsly, for those who have nt give up, thanks. We will gt to do dinner/supper some day! Or just hang out & chill. I miss those times where we stop by e TCC at Clarke Quay aft sch just to chill.

You know what, sometimes, I actually miss sch. Heck, I even miss SSM. Ok. I am nt crazy but times at TCA were fun, weren't they? At least at sch, peeps are more simple minded, iykwim. Enough said, cus I cant possibly rewind time.

& now, I'm kinda stuck in a major dilemma; smth which I hate cus there are pros & cons to every single decision tt I make. So irdk what to do abt it. Well, mainly, it's abt 2 job offers, 1 from MBS & 1 more RW. How now brown cow?!

& also, I am dying to travel & I miss Europe tonnes!

ALL LEADS TO THIS; DECISIONS DECISIONS DECISIONS.

Ok, bed time. Ok, maybe some Wii before bed.

Ltr Gators.

P.S.: Will blog more soon.

Does It?

2009-11-28T03:37:00.001+08:00

Does it mean anything when you're feeling scared, you think of a certain someone's name?

Fulfilled.

2009-11-28T02:55:00.001+08:00

Finally; e pair of Diesel flats which I've lusted for a couple of months. No more buying of shoes for now.

Contented.

2009-11-25T02:32:00.003+08:00

Everyone should learn how to be.

& I mean EVERYONE.

Damage.

2009-11-07T23:19:00.000+08:00

S$135 Aldo flats.

Another Day.

2009-10-14T23:44:00.003+08:00

Hi.

So today is my off day. Let's see..

I watched some VCDs, surfed e net, gt my lazy ass off bed, took medicine, went out to town, Ion a lil, kikki.K rocks btw, bought some things, shopped somemore, fell in love w/ MUJI's white calculator, dk why no clothes catches my eye, went to Cineleisure to watch Fame, yes, alone, quite nice, met up w/ Alicia e Mousey, went over to Tampines One to met CrappyKat, had dinner at F.I.S.H, dont go unless necessary, shopped a lil, bought some things, chilled at Tea Loft, girls talk, took cab home, shat, took medicine, do eye mask, using comp, charging iPod, lusting aft iPod Touch, wants to go back to kikki.K, wants to buy clothes, tired, planning things, feel like eating tonnes of fruits, wants a tan, slpy, going to watch VCDs, lazy to blog.

Night guys.

Busy Bee.

2009-09-30T13:11:00.004+08:00

Hi ya'll.

I think my blog is a dead town & many have given up reading my blog. Well except for KinkyKim cus she's e only person who tags here anw.

I dont think you guys are thinking what have I been up to cus it's so frigging obvious. Acc. to LemonTartShane, I have been "working like a dog". Well I dont really agree w/ him cus I dont work like a dog, just tt my hrs are long. You see, I start work at arnd 12pm till 3pm & then go on a big split shift before I start work at 6pm & end at wtev time e restaurant closes. In short, I have no life cus e only time I can have a gd lunch or dinner is on my off day. How to blog like tt?! & usually, my off days are packed. Else, I am just way too lazy to blog when lazing on my bed, getting more slp.

I think work is starting to take a toll on me cus I am nt having enough slp hence e hideous (srs, it's tt bad) eye bags! Or acc. to KinkyKim, "eye luggages". Also, my face is discolouring. Srs. I think e only way to solve this is to gt a nice tan. & since I dont like to tan in Singapore (dont ask me why), I need a frigging holiday for me to gt a tan. Ok, I just sounded like a spoilt brat. Alright, more like I need a long holiday to be brain dead & conveniently gt a nice tan, ok?! But I've alr gone on 3 holidays this year so ugh, maybe next year then. I still wanna go to Borocay in Philippines cus it's supposedly one of e best beaches in e world!!!!!

So work isn't a bed of roses. & it isn't tt hellish either. Oh rmb I mentioned tt our well loved Operation Director JoeJoeArmani is leaving? Well, he left. & we have a new Manager by e name of *drumrooooolllll* Joe. But I call him ZhoueeeHung. Try pronouncing tt, it may work. & also another 2 Assistant Manager which 1 went MIA. I'm so nt surprised by his MIA act. Well you see, our place is full of miracles, magic & surprises. So e only way to handle all of em at one go is to be cool.

Work on e whole is ok. Seen a lot of celebrities & famous peeps like LKY (super cute), his son, his daughter-in-law, Kobe Bryant, some racer, President, Benedict Goh, Rozz, Shan Wee, Jamie Yeo, Glenn Ong, Jean Danker, Jade Seah & omg, a lot more. Perks of work I guess, idk. But I'm nt v excited abt em except for LKY cus HE TALKED TO ME & I BLUSHED. He is really v charming.. To me at least.

Colleagues are ok. Lucky for me, some jokers actually exist so we can have a gd laugh even though we are damn busy. All e nonsense jokes, learning perverted Tagalog & all e dumb antics peeps pull. But, as usual, I dont put too much feelings into em cus who knows? Peeps come & go.. Tt line is frigging true, esp in our industry.

Well to sum up my work life, I am surviving. Of cus there are ups & downs but I try nt to over analyze things; it's tiring. So I just try to gt my work done, enjoy e company of my Bro & KinkyKim, & look fwd to payday tgt!

So my life pretty much revolves arnd work & suppers. Of cus, metting up w/ e girls, hunting for new F&B outlets to try & what nt. Sadly, haven't been shopping much except for at MUJI. Pls everyone, go to MUJI, it's prolly e best place ever. Or e next closest place to heaven! DID I TELL YOU TT THEY HAVE BOTTLED ICED EARL GREY TEA W/ LESS SUGAR?! They are tt amazing.

Of cus, personal life have some ups & downs as well. Well wtev it is, be cool as a cucumber. Tt's e way arnd most things.

Obligatory lists of things tt I want:
no more hard disk cus someone gave one to me (nt lend right?!)
iPod Touch
braces (I have been procrastinating like hell)
scar cream for my legs
flat stummy
running shoes
more time
keep fit
jogging
"driving lessons"
hols to Borocay, Bali, Hong Kong, Taiwan, Europe
maybe a new laptop
but feel like a cool desktop too
or just gt mine reformatted so it works fast can alr LOL
tt Skagen watch
more clothes
staple ring cus I lost my staple Topshop rings
be contended
be happy
be healthy
slp more
no more eye bags
surprises
hbhg
hair cut
bungee jump
thrill rides
CZ
Garibaldi
Gunthers
gd tiramisu
gd Earl Grey tea
gd macaroons
seafood feast
me time
eat moderately
gd food
Mil Bil Sil
meet ups w/ friends
social life
maybe a few days off work
heater
private time
home alone
catch up on movies, VCDs, DVDs
DVDs for all interesting dramas
gt a tan

Omg so many things.

Ok pls read this post slowly cus idk when I'll have e time to blog such a long one. A bit late to say it now eh? Haha.

& yes, I've grown to be cool. Nt e act cool kinda cool, but you know. YEAH.

To end of this post, I shall quote a famous friend cum colleague cum language teacher cum shaker cum Sfrite wannabe:

"How to pace e froblem when e froblem is your pace"

HAHA.

& we will all laugh at gilded butterflies.

Ltr Kids. Take care.

Wednesday.

2009-09-29T00:22:00.002+08:00

I will blog then.

Appreciated.

2009-09-22T21:42:00.002+08:00

Simple, clear & pure.

KinkyKim: Thank you.

Exactly So.

2009-09-22T13:33:00.004+08:00

Yeah.

Btw, KinkyKim is cooking seafood pasta in pink sauce now & I'm using e comp.

777th Post.

2009-09-22T13:23:00.002+08:00

Ironic 666.

Packed.

2009-09-15T11:44:00.002+08:00

Tt's how my off day will be like.

Meeting Alicia e Mousey for lunch ltr.
Brows,manicure & tea w/ CrappyKat.
Much awaited dinner at Bakerzin w/ Michael & Jinggy.
Movie w/ KinkyKim.
In btwn will be doing some stuff too.

Coolio Milo.

Hopefully I'll still have e energy to blog a gd one when I'm back.

Ltr Gators.

The Morning After.

2009-09-05T12:30:00.002+08:00

I had a rather unpleasant dream last night.

You know, whenever I gt this weird feeling in me(thanks to e dream this time round), it just sucks so much? As much as I dont want to feel this but it just keeps coming to me & there's absolutely ntg I can do abt it to keep it away. It's frustrating :/. Surge of feelings but ntg translates into words. Le sigh.

I really hope it's just e frigging pms & ntg else.

Out.

1 + 1.

2009-09-01T17:10:00.002+08:00

=1.

Oldies.

2009-08-30T15:21:00.002+08:00

When I'm feeling blue

All I have to do

Is to take a look at you.

EOW Fun.

2009-08-21T10:18:00.001+08:00

Hi guys.

I srsly hate alcohol.

Had wine training ytd & all I had was like 5 sips? & omg. Shitty effect.

Smelling wine aft tt made me wanna puke so badly.

Ew.

P.S.: EOW.

CEO.

2009-08-18T02:14:00.002+08:00

Hi guys!

It's been a million years since I last blogged smth substantial. Err not like tonight's post will be a substantial one but still, better than those one liner right?

So e reason for my lack of posts is work & more work. Really. E split shifts are killing my social life & my private time! Frigging tired by e time I end work & have no energy for other things. Only thing to look fwd to is only split shift, end of work, half days, night before off day & off days!

Quite a few happenings:
movie dates
hardcore karaoke
chilling
shopping
Brother's 22nd
JoeJoeArmani's departure
CE
ZA eye mask
picture taking during split shifts
Jinggy's last day
Bil
heart to heart talks
& lots more

Am a lil drained from late nights. Eye bags transforming to eye luggages which explains e eye mask & my soon to be Garnier eye roll on. Haha. Alrighty, turning into bimbo alr. STOP HERE IS FINE.

But all e late nights are fun & fulfilling, really (:

Super tired. Super in need of a short getaway before e amount of events floods in during Sept! Woohoo. Looking fwd to it.

Alrighty, am hitting e sheets. Tired like cow.

Night all.

P.S.: My dark circles is worse ok? CHILL.

P.P.S.: Bichini?!

Leaves & Pebble.

2009-08-12T01:54:00.004+08:00

Winsor.

I like it e traditional way, I really do.

Serene.

2009-08-06T23:21:00.007+08:00

River cruise along Little Venice.

Another night spent missing Europe.

Old Face, New Feel.

2009-08-04T22:47:00.001+08:00

Hi guys.

Been a couple of days since I last blogged. Haha. I know. Again, lagging behind as always.

Anw, he's back & he's leaving. What kind of a sad sad transition is tt? :/

Le sigh.

P.S.: Short & sweet cus am blogging from work.

P.P.S.: Will blog a nice one either tmr or Thu eh? (:

Old Face, New Feel.

2009-08-04T22:47:00.000+08:00

Koolkat.

2009-08-01T16:28:00.003+08:00

Hi.

Just gt my pay cheque ytd night & e feeling of cashing it out this morning is koolkat.

Things tt I'm going to spend it on:
karaoke (dont judge me)
see Kumar at Hard Rock
bowling during split
Garnier eye roll on for my dearest eye bags
hard disc

Srsly need to spend wisely this month. No more bullshit like e past couple of months alr. I even changed a substantial amount to $5 notes to I will spend lesser during split shift. Alr set aside money for transport & food. Hopefully my plan for this month will work out cus need to spend on a couple of stuff. Bro's bday, Mum's bday, Joe's farewell etc. Wish me luck.

Alright, gtg for work.

Ltr Gators.

Thank You.

2009-07-29T18:06:00.001+08:00

& gdbye.

Best Straight Shift Ever.

2009-07-27T18:34:00.001+08:00

Hi guys.

My title prolly sums up everything abt work today!I was put on straight shift tgt w/ Jinggy today & we had lotsa fun.But duh,of cus aft we finish up w/ our work.

Did some uber lame things,surfed,talk abt work on e whole,welcoming KinkyKim's fav JW guest.

Also,had a heart to heart talk w/ her,smth which is v rare for e both of us.Right?Lol.Anw,it was gd.Laughing at any possible silly stuff & talking abt srs matters.But too bad,our best straight shift just ended & am blogging during my break again.Hopefully we'll have more chance to be on straight shift tgt (: Could use more enterainment in my life.

Aiights,gtg gt back to work.

Ltr Alligator.

Pictures Below.

2009-07-27T00:45:00.001+08:00

Pls scroll down for pictures galore.

Happy Meal.

2009-07-25T17:37:00.002+08:00

I just realized tt it takes small lil simple things to motivate me, help me forget all unhappy thoughts & to be happy again.

& you're my happy meal.

Race Ahead.

2009-07-25T12:25:00.002+08:00

Was feeling terrible last night.From working till otw home till I finally gt to slp.Woke up a couple of times,tossing & turning in bed.God.Idk what was wrong.

Nveless,am still alive if you're wondering.Haha

Tmr's my off day.I srsly cant wait to take a break from work.

In case you're wondering,I'm blogging during my break time.Wifi is e shit.

Ltr Kiddos.

Excuse Me.

2009-07-24T12:35:00.001+08:00

But many things in life are better left unsaid..

& dont ask.Cus aft you ask,you'll know & you'll hurt.

Guilt.

2009-07-23T16:04:00.006+08:00

Hi guys.

Just trying out e wifi thingy.Am blogging from Marina Square.

Sigh..Smth happened at work made me so so so guilty.Really loss for words.

Anw,am frigging tired now,feel like falling aslp but we're at e food court now.Ok I dont make sense at all.

Ttyl ts.

Ignorance.

2009-07-23T03:05:00.004+08:00

Lies aft lies.

Confrontations aft confrontations.

Wait aft wait.

Probs aft probs.

Qns aft qns.

Uncertainty; tt's all.

As e saying goes, "ignorance is bliss". I'm slowly appreciating what tt line means.. Sometimes, I'd rather nt know.. Think posititve.

Time's up for today.

My TS.

2009-07-22T09:27:00.002+08:00

Aiyah.

Murder scene.

Demanding.

Pins & needles.

Confession.

Fol.

Pictures.

2009-07-20T23:22:00.044+08:00

6 months of my life in pictures.

At Jules.

Super comfy.

Super step.

Yes, we raided e kitchen.

Teasing Raj.

Last day of sch; my group mates.

cUt3 maRhx?

Pizzaaaaa.

Guess who.

Like real.

I know, nice face.

Kinky.

Even more kinky.

Prom King & Queen.

Pillars of strength at work.

Lovely Brother.

6 String Pub.

Nick rides.

Best buddies to "eat my shit".

My lame is Joe.

Classic captains.

Aloysius' commissioning ball.

My fav transport in Thailand.

Chatujak!

More shopping.

Gd meals.

Me against e luggage.

Us.

Redang! View from our room.

Dont we look pro?!

Guess who came back w/ a nice tan?

Amazing clear blue water.

Step.

Kim's attempt at zi pai.

HAHA. Like real.

Nice finger.

Outside Wine Company.

Kat's 20th at La Cantina.

Love this pic w/ her (:

Ok. Tt pretty much sums up my life e past 6 months?

Work, Bangkok, functions, fancy dinners, karaoke, Redang, shopping, fun, crazy photo taking, new hair cut, new clothes, make up, gd company, close friends, lovely Brother & happy days (:

Shoot Me.

2009-07-20T23:13:00.001+08:00

Like for real.

No one told me tt I'm so lazy!!!!! I realized tt e last time I posted pictures w/ humans was in Feb. ZOMG. I just realized how boring my blog is..

Anw, am going to upload a gazillion of pictures on my blog. Specially for those peeps who dont Facebook. Alrighty, hope 1 hr is enough. Haha.

Ltr Alligator.

A Letter.

2009-07-20T22:48:00.003+08:00

To whom it may concern:

Dear Sir,
I regret to inform you that I may not be able to continue with this anymore.

Yours Faithfully
Christabel

Surprise.

2009-07-17T03:34:00.002+08:00

Me.

Suitor.

2009-07-16T09:43:00.001+08:00

All girls should be allowed to go through e process of having a suitor. Woo her. Flowers, surprises & all e sweet ntgs <3

Hot Date.

2009-07-15T11:04:00.002+08:00

Hi all.

You guessed it! It's my off day today ((: Thought I'll gt my half day ytd but.. Nm.

Anw, plans are filled today! Haha. Am going on a super hot date (:

Catching I Love You Man at Vivocity at 140pm. Aft which, will do some shopping before heading to town to do somemore shopping. & am going to indulge in F&B (duh) at The Wine Company. Much raved abt so am keeping my fingers crossed. Cant wait to just chill during dinner.. & talk.

So anw, there are wayyyyy too many F&B outlets tt I wanna try! But mostly French & Italian.. Lol. Who would wanna go w/ me?

Garibaldi
Gunthers (e angel hair w/ caviar)
Pasta Brava
Buko Nero
Au Jardin
The Tapas Tree
The Moomba
Outback
2AM Dessert Bar
raid e whole of Dempsey, Holland Village & Evans Road

Ok. Aft I gt next month's pay, I promise to treat myself to a gd Italian meal. But of cus.. Ntg can be compared to e frigging fresh pasta, squid ink & fresh seafood in Italy. I miss Europe like crazy. & gd Spanish tapas, paella & hardcore shopping. E countryside in England.. OMG.

But IF I can go to Europe again.. I'll go to Amsterdam (to try what they're famous for), France (to eat e macaroons,for real) & Venice. Haha. A girl can dream cant she?

Alrighty, major side track.

Am off to shower & then will head out for my hot date.

Ltr Alligator.

11th July 2009, Saturday, 11.02am.

2009-07-12T01:16:00.004+08:00

I've cleared my inbox & cleared my mind. Tt really marked e end of it. E feeling is truly indescribable!

Anw, I'm back from work! Really kinda tired today. Prolly cus of e fact tt I slept at 4am ytd!

Yes, I do realize tt I'm blogging more often than in e past cus I just decided to put in more effort into my blog. Haha. Though e srs lack of pictures is a major turn off to some. Anw, pictures of my Bangkok trip, CrappyKat's 20th bday celebration & life at work are on Facebook. Do check em out in case you guys think tt my social life sucks so much tt I dont even take pictures. I still try to make it a point to bring my camera out to snap some shots for memories sake alright? Give me a chance. Lol.

Anw, tmr seems like a super duper fulfilling day for me. Plan to wake up at arnd 1130am to finish up some paper work for urms, work? Head out to send my clothes for alteration. In case you guys are thinking why e hell do I always bring my clothes for alteration is cus of e fact tt e clothes tt I like dont fit me perfectly. Either too low cut or too long! & when I say it's too low cut, dont tell me "wear tube la!"!!!!! I avoid as much as possible to wear tubes cus I dont really like e contrast in colours. SO I DIGRESS. Aft tt, will head over to Cheecake Cafe at Siglap to meet up w/ Yili e Sex. I know.. It's been a gazillion years since you see her name appear here Will blog more abt tt e next time or smth. I srsly cant wait to see her tmr & pick up w we left off. Really miss her. Tonnes. <3 Aft tt, will head over to work :/ But aft work, am meeting LoonyLinus for some late night dim sum. Srsly cant wait. Alr been craving for dim sum for lunch! Will satisfy my craving tmr during supper. Better be gd! Idk abt you but it sounds pretty fulfilling for me. Haha. Able to do smth for work, smth for myself & also meet up w/ 2 diff groups of friends. Sounds like fun to me alr (:

Been a long time since I blogged abt my wants so here goes!

hard disc
iPod Touch
meals at Garibaldi, Buko Nerro, Pasta Brava, ToP Table, Blue Basil, Au Jardin
chilling at Oosh, 2AM Dessert Bar, Over Easy
movies like Obsessed, The Haunting, The Proposal
karaoke
suppers
dim sum
Italian & Spanish food
Europe trip again
free cab rides
Borocay
Hong Kong
finish every possible paper work for work
a chic hair cut
gel French nails
more clothes (omg did I tell you tt Zara is having a crazy sale? Alr bought 6 items from em & feel tt it ain't enough)
more shoes (flats & sneakers)
happy days at work
payday
10 hrs of slp everyday

Yeah. Tt's all I can think of now.

Btw, am off on Wednesday next week. Prolly going to collect my clothes from alteration, meet some friends for movie, dinner & shopping w/ CrappyKat (been eyeing on this Dorothy Perkins dress). Yeah.

Really need to start saving, spend wisely & stop cabbing arnd like as if it's free. Ok. Pillow is calling me alr.

Night guys.

P.S.: KinkyKim said "so glad you're back". Glad is an understatement. Lol. Gd night lovers.

The Wake Up Call.

2009-07-10T18:02:00.006+08:00

Peeps who know me well should know tt e past one week was a nightmare for me. Well..

Perhaps sometimes, you just need to be at e edge of e cliff to see things clearly. I was standing right at e edge of e cliff all alone, almost plunging.. But I'm glad I didn't. I survived.

I needed tt wake up call badly & I'm glad I gt it. Though it wasn't e best possible wake up call but it did solve many many qns tt I have had. I have straightened out my thoughts & will nt turn back this time round.. I've turned back way too many times. Right from e beginning, I alr knew e ending to it. However, I just wanted to go through e whole bloody process to prove tt I'm right. I know. I asked for it, totally..

From today onwards, I will nt have any qns or wtsoever regarding tt issue anymore. I'm over it. I've locked this entire issue up into a box & threw e keys into a space tt I can nv ever find. Ever.

I know tt it may seem as if I'm faking it or pulling some dumb stunt but no. I am just being v honest & true to myself. No doubt it's cruel, but I just wanna be 100% real to myself & to everyone arnd me.

I am fine this time round. I have really let it go & am much stronger than I thought. I will be better than just fine. All these thoughts just came to me all of e sudden, it was like receiving enlightenment. No worries. I'm a survivor & always will be. This will just be another episode of my life.

...& show's over. Now let e curtains drop..

The 8th.

2009-07-09T05:25:00.003+08:00

& e last.

Christabel Tan Kar Mun, you alr did it 8 times & it's high time you stop it. Just stop it & you'll be fine..

Half Hearted.

2009-07-09T05:10:00.003+08:00

Hi.

If you're wondering why am I up so early.. I actually just gt back from a much needed karaoke session. Pls dont judge me. I really really needed tt karaoke session badly. I srsly think I can just repeat one song for e whole damn session. 4 hrs of karaoke but still nt enough. Think we need at least 5 or 6 hrs.

& I realized I haven't been talking much abt work? Work's fine, ntg much to mention except for e fact tt our Operations Director, Joe is leaving. I guess I will miss him. But hopefully we're meeting for some Italian lunch on coming Sunday (:

Am v v disapointed in some so called friends these few days.. V v v disappointed. Le sigh. But then again, life goes on. I cant comment much here anw..

What a dumb blog post.

心.

2009-07-08T14:15:00.000+08:00

很酸..

Sunshine.

2009-07-06T13:54:00.005+08:00

I didn't know a simple phone call can make me smile like an idiot for a gd whole 1 min..

Keep It Locked.

2009-07-05T23:46:00.004+08:00

I'm really relieved you told me wtev happened to you for e past week. Glad everything's clear up on your side. Even more glad tt we had a talk tt afternoon. Some things tt you said really made a a hell lot of sense to me.

I like e way you said this: "I dont tell peeps my problems because it doesn't makes sense to bring more peeps into my problems. E lesser e peeps involved, e better it is for yourself." Cus I totally agree w/ wtev you said. Some times, e way we deal w/ things are just too alike.

&& this : "It might nt be a gd thing to know yourself too well cus you'll most likely know how you'll react to all situations. Tt's why I understand why peeps wanna gt drunk because being too sober is nt gd." & I'm v v afraid tt I know myself too well cus it's too harsh for me to handle.

Yes, having tt conversation w/ you was super weird but I just like e feeling tt I was actually blocked out from e world temporarily, doing my own work & back facing you so you cant read my emotions & vice versa.

As much as I really wanna murder you sometimes (for real & I believe e feeling is mutual), some things you said to me will stay w/ me.. In a gd way of cus.

Last but nt least, what is mended is but patched.

Gd night everyone.

Success.

2009-07-04T22:58:00.001+08:00

E guy succeeded (:

Proposal.

2009-07-04T17:05:00.002+08:00

Hello.

I know it's wrong to be blogging from work but I just have to.

Just received a giant bouquet of 101 red roses from e florist. It's for a guest to propose to his partner tonight. He even arranged a special dessert w/ e proposal ring on it. Idk how to put it but it's so frigging sweet. Tacky yes but all girls love flowers (esp this giant bouquet which is frigging heavy) & surprises as such no?

I sincerely hope he will suceed tonight. Gd luck my man.

<3

P.S.: Am praying hard tt I wont shed tears of joy for em. Too kukumalu alr.

Honesty.

2009-06-29T21:22:00.002+08:00

Hi.

Work is sucking e life out of me. I'll spare e details cus it's just way too frustrating. & e worse part? My off day for this week is on Sunday. Like. So frigging random. & of cus, currently no plans for my off day. Hate it on Friday, Saturday or Sunday cus it's so frigging crowded everyw. & I need to do my brows asap. Haha. Since urms, tmr is payday.. Maybe go for a lil shopping spree. Nice bag at Desigual & Zara is having a crazy sale.

Oh & why am I so free to blog today at this timing? Manager decided to be a kind soul to give me half day off. How nice. But half day was spent doing things for work :/ Uber lame. In any case, am looking fwd to payday & my off day (:

Badly need a short getaway to.. Wever. Just need a short break from work & all e drama.

I'm nt saying I'm a liar but I want to be more honest. W/ everything. Srsly everything.

Alrighty, shan't turn emo. Am going to watch some VCDs & prolly head out for supper.

Ltr Alligator.

P.S.: Button!

WTP.

2009-06-24T14:59:00.001+08:00

I typed a whole long post & poof, it's gone. Am late to type again. Maybe tonight. Off to meet CrappyKat to celebrate her bday at La Cantina in Venezia tgt w/ Alicia e Mousey. Tonight will be gd.

P.S.: Cant wait to off w/ KinkyKim.

P.P.S.: Need to stop splurging aft tonight.

P.P.P.S: Miss you like GSS.

Black Black Heart.

2009-06-24T14:10:00.004+08:00

TYPED LIKE A WEEK AGO DURING MY OFF :/

Hey guys.

It's been quite a while since I wrote smth on this space & I feel tt I've gt a lot to say today.

As usual, e reason of my disappearance is ntg but work. Events happening almost every week & it's sucking e life out of me.. Somehow.

I really feel tt aft I started full time, my social life became extremely miserable. Either meeting friends late at night aft work or friends give up on asking me out. You see, my working hrs are a lil crazy. A typical day for me starts at 10am when I wake up to gt ready for work at 12pm. Work from 12pm-3pm. Take a break from 3pm-6pm (& idk why time passes so quickly during e break) before cont' work at 6pm-11pm or sometimes 12am. Srsly. When will I ever find e time to meet up w/ friends or lunch/dinner unless it's on my off days? I know some wiseass will start saying "we have all e time in e world blablabla you need to find time on your own blablabla". You know what? Just shut your trap. E worse part is tt idk if I'll ever go for a break until e clock strikes 3pm. How sad is tt?

I realize tt I didn't talk much abt my work place in all my posts so allow me to share a lil today. I'm working in a modern Chinese restaurant which sits 346 pax. Design of e place is pretty cool. Peking duck is absolutely orgasmic. Work enviroment is ok, really ntg to rave abt except for e cool fact tt I'm working w/ my Bro, his gf, KinkyKim. Jinngy & X Man! Super fun break time tgt. Ahh ok I'd rather nt talk abt work on my blog. V dangerous.

So ytd was KinkyKim's off day & Izik allowed me to go off early! So we met up & went to a place tt I've been dying to try! We went to Oriole's at Pan Pacific Serviced Suites. It was so damn gd. Splurging on such food is worth it. Had portebello mushrooms w/ rocket, bangers & mash for her, seafood risotto for myself & a honey crumble affogato to end. Super sinful but I love every bit of e dinner. & aft e dinner, we went to catch The Taking of Pelham 123. It was gd though I fell aslp quite a bit. Lol. Nveless, had an enjoyable time w/ KinkyKim. Nv hang out w/ her for a looooong time! Urms seeing each other at work doesn't cut it!

&& I srsly dk when it will happen. No balls or no guts; tt's what I call it. Dilemma is e word tt creeps into my brain every now & then. Irdk if I'll ever have e energy to cont' on w/ this. It is tiring, but I believe it'll all be worth it when I'm ready. Believe me.

Anw, it's 3pm & I'm super late. Am celebrating CrappyKat's bday at La Cantina in Venezia w/ Alicia e Mousey. Cant wait! Gotta scoot, shower, gt dressed, gt her present & meet em. I'm sure tonight will be fun. Miss hanging out w/ e 2 of em. Alrighty, I'm out.

Peace.

P.S.: Cant wait to off w/ KinkyKim or Jinggy!

P.P.S.: I need to stop splurging aft tonight.

P.P.P.S.: Miss you like GSS.

Blood The Last Vampire.

2009-06-09T00:55:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Off day is over & it's officially Tue :/

Anw, I did send my clothes for alteration. 7 pieces in total. Super sad tt 1 of e dresses cant be altered! It's too frigging low in front! Met PervBerns at Cottage Pies today for dinner before watching Bloood The Last Vampire. Aft which I went to meet CrappyKat for some supper & nonsense chat. Am back at home to watch DVDs. Lol. Quite productive right? & PervBerns reminded me tt e IT Fair is here so might as well check out hard disks over e weekend. Oh & instead of taking a cab, I took a grand total of 2 buses today! Am so frigging proud of myself. You have no idea how much love I have for cabs these days. Haha. But I did cab home from supper though.

Am currently watching e Korean version of Boys Over Flowers. Pls dont judge me. It's pretty gd btw. I love romance.

It's quite silly sometimes tt you allow your heart to rule your head when e logical ans is right in front of you. I know e ans long long time ago but I just wanted to gt cfmation from everyone possible to convince myself. Why is it so silly? Why?

Night.

P.S.: Am nt feeling well. Nose is running to Joo Koon alr.

P.P.S.: I want some body warmth. IYKWIM.

Crying My Lungs Out.

2009-06-08T12:46:00.003+08:00

Hi guys.

Today's my off day again & did I mention tt I hate Mon/Tue off? Cus you have absolutely ntg to look fwd to for e week! How nice is tt.

& I'm using my Sis' comp to blog so damn it, tt means NO PICS. Ugh.

My wonderful plan for e day:
watch DVDs
send clothes for alteration
buy my hard disk drive && cont' looking at iPod Touch to further entice myself
hopefully meet e guys for Blood e Last Vampire
meet PervBerns for drinks
meet Alicia e Mousey & CrappyKat for supper

Btw, am starting work at 11am EVERY SINGLE DAY for e rest of e week. -_- Super irritating.

Oh & I just woke up. It's only 1pm. Hope I can achieve all e things I plan to do today. I wanna leave home by 3pm to gt all my things done but am super lazy to leave e East side.

Ok. Gtting my ass off e chair.

Ltr Alligator.

Bangkok Loving.

2009-06-05T01:06:00.001+08:00

Hi all.

I'm back from Bangkok & no, I didn't bang any c***s. Actually, e whole trip was hard work.

23rd May 2009, Sat
Chatujak
Birds nest
Massage

24th May 2009, Sun
Siam Paragon
Siam Centre
MBK
Platinum
Suan Lum

25th May 2009, Mon
Temple
Platinum
Pratunum
SUPER ORGASMIC AUTHENTIC THAI LUNCH
Platinum
Suan Lum
Massage

26th May 2009, Tue
Central World
MBK
Siam Square
SUPER SATISFYING LUNCH AT COCA

Shopping all day long so you tell me if it's hard work? Anw, obviously I didn't shop enough. Cus I was kinda shocked at e prices now. Used to gt tops for 100 baht. Now? At least 200 baht! Quite sien. & super hate it when peeps try to rip us off by telling us tt a normal maxi dress is 900 baht. Crazy. But on a lighter note, a lot of em spoke Thai to me. I should really learn some Thai so tt they will nt attempt to rip me off like some dumb tourists. Haha. & idk why am I mistaken for Thai. & Cambodian, Burmese, Indonesian, Filipino, Chinese, Indian mixed Malay. WHY SO ASIAN?!

&& yes, I know I have been neglecting my blog like some bastard but do allow me to explain pls! Been super tied up w/ work these days cus of e gazillion amount of events in May. At least 1 every week. May was hectic. & idk what's up w/ my wireless internet thingy. It just wont work. Am using my Sis' laptop to blog btw. So, tt pretty much explains e lack of posts/pictures/posts w/ pictures. Anw, I think I will be super lazy to blog w/ pics cus I love uploading on Facebook. It's so frigging easy to do so. So those of you who dont have an account, pls sign up!

Happy news: Finally gt my E71, in red, no less. I like e red. But was deciding btwn black or red since I LOVE black. But black is too man. Then came white. Gt kinda attracted but many peeps said it's too girly for me (wth?!). So red it is. Damn sexcited. Will spend e next few days reading e manual though cus currently, I only know how to text & call. LOL. Need to find out some cool applications for me to use. Haha.

Hmm, hopefully June wont be tt busy so I can do some decent posts every now & then.

Life w/o sch is quite diff. Cant believe it's only been abt 3 or 4 months since sch ended. Cant believe I alr started working full time. Cant believe I have to commit to a job. Cant believe I dont have a solid plan for my future. My only pathetic plan includes getting a phone & hard disk in June, an iPod Touch in July & start braces in Aug. Tell me how pathetic my plan is. Pondering abt Marina Bay Sands though..

Tt aside. Life's been treating me alright. Although friendships ain't as solid as before. Miss hanging out w/ e girls. Only seeing Jinggy at work & seldom contact w/ e rest. Tt's super sad isn't it? Sigh.

Oh & today's my off day. Nua-ed in my bed before going to Sushi Tei for dinner w/ my Mum & Sis. Caught Night at e Museum 2 as well. Super hilarious. & I'm deprived of movies yet again. I WANNA WATCH MOVIE & EAT SWEET POPCORN.

Work can be quite shitty sometimes w/ childish peeps arnd.

& amidst all e emotional trauma, there's.....

***.

P.S.: EVERYONE WHO IS READING THIS PLS SEND ME A TEXT & LEAVE YOUR NAME CUS I CHANGED MY 2G SIM CARD TO A 3G SIM CARD & LOST ALL MY CONTACTS. BUT I STILL WANNA CONTACT YOU GUYS SO PLS DO ME A FAVOUR! Thanks. <3

P.P.S.: Nt e time.

Jetting Off.

2009-05-22T04:23:00.002+08:00

A much awaited trip w/ Jinggy & SF. Am flying off tmr to Bangkok to bang some *ahem* c***.

Chatujak, Platinum, MBK, Siam Square, Siam Paragon, Pratunum, Suan Lum, Khao San, birds nest, massage, wo lai le.

Catch ya'll when I'm back.

P.S.: Yet to pack.

P.P.S.: My phone is dead. R.I.P. Now, E71 or E66?

P.P.P.S.: Chinatown sells OMG SUPER cheap daily neccessities!!!!!

Back To Black.

2009-05-19T10:14:00.001+08:00

Hello.

It's one of those rare short post tt I can afford. In any case, last week was war & I'm glad I survived it!

To reward myself, I reserved e Zara jumpsuit & picked it up ytd. Super excited. But shoot. E black structural vest caught my eyes as well. Haha. Well, idk. KinkyKim said she'll reserve it for me a day before I return from Bangkok. Lol. We shall see. Btw, cheque is in (:

&& I'm starting work at 6pm today! I know! So rare. Ok. Nt like you care but I do. Anw, I'm going to start packing my bag ltr, head to town to do my brows, shop at Muji, do a lil shopping as well & gt a decent dinner on my own!

Au revoir.

P.S.: W should I go for dinner in town?

Pay Day.

2009-05-16T02:10:00.001+08:00

Hi guys.

Been SUPER busy since I started full time. More of tt next time.

ANW, TODAY IS PAY DAY. SO FRIGGING HAPPY PLS.

I wanna treat myself to super gd food. Either Italian or Spanish! & of cus, shopping. ZOMG. Hard disk drive too.

Ok tired alr.

Ktyvmbye.

Xanadu Dragon.

2009-05-07T23:21:00.002+08:00

Hi guys.

I cant believe I'm at home at this hr & blogging. Normally, at this hr, I'd be taking orders/sending drinks/clearing up tables at work. They were kind enough to allow me to rest today cus I worked till 2am e previous nights. Hallelujah.

Oh for those who dk, I've started working full time since 1st of May. Supposedly 5.5 day work week but many events during e month of May so you can imagine e amount OT we have to do. Gees. But then again, as long as I'm enjoying work, I guess e hrs are worth it. Haha. Must be super positive abt work. I LOVE WORK. HOORAY.

HOWEVER, working more means I dont have time for any social life. Guess some friends alr give up asking me out. If you guys are guilty of it & reading this, pls dont give up!

Ugh hate it tt e pay is nt in yet! So you can imagine how poor am I now. Srsly cant wait to gt pay..

Nt much motivation now cus there's practically ntg much for me to look fwd to except for e Bangkok trip. Been curbing myself like MAD abt shopping cus will be heading to Bangkok end of e month. Hopefully e shopping trip will be v fruitful. BTW, I saw a SUPER nice jump suit at Zara tt I wanna gt. So, my salary, if you're reading this, PLS appear in my face soon.

&& I want to:
try gd food at La Cantina in Venezia, Blue Basil & Nicholas.
gt gd slp.
shop for things tt I cant really gt in Bangkok like shoes & pants. *ahem* Zara jumpsuit *ahem*.
change e battery for my watch.
slp more.
go for a proper spa.
watch Revolutionary Road, Disaster Movie & some old movies.
& gt a nice, gd & long slp.

Ok. Hope I ain't asking for too much. Lol.

Turning in soon!

Night ya'll.

P.S.: I KNOW tt my blog is EXTREMELY boring.

Detached.

2009-05-04T22:03:00.003+08:00

For e last couple of days, I didn't know how to feel..

Is it true tt when you know a person v well, you'll be more or less used to his/her ways even though it may be wrong? If tt is so, can someone tell me why do I still feel e disappointment tt I'm feeling now? This is nt e 1st, 2nd or 3rd time tt such a situation is happening; it is e umpteenth time tt I feel this way abt you, or us. I srsly dk how to deal w/ it anymore since I dont feel tt you're genuinely here w/ me most of e times. I dont like promises & yet you love to give em; empty ones even. & for a moment, 4 seems like a nice number.

& you. Idek w to begin. I'd say this is first ever crack in our rls. How did we even allow it to happen? I srsly have nfi. All I can say is, I'm v disappointed, frustrated & angry at e same time. I'm nt saying who's right or who's wrong but your reaction to this drama allowed me to see a side of you tt I nv did before. Whether it's gd or bad, it all happened; e hurt is done & there's no turning back. I can only hope for things to gt better btwn us.

As for you, you can eat cat shit & rub it in your own face. & dang, I have gt so much things to say abt you but I dont think it's suitable for e public eye. But congratulations! Cus you're abt e most sick in e head (if you even have one to begin w/) person I have ever met.

& finally. Aft all e drama tt took place, I come to realize tt blood is indeed thicker than water.. It's true.

Peace out.

P.S.: If you dek wth I'm talking abt in this post, gd for you.

P.P.S.: Am currently detached from e real world, void of all feelings & 100% emotionless.

Reborn.

2009-05-01T00:13:00.002+08:00

Hi guys. Just a short update before I hit e sheets.

I'm starting full time tmr! & tmr is Labour Day. I know, what a day to start full time right? Urms, ain't gt much comment abt going full time cus it'll be an experience aft all.

& I srsly need to stop spending w/o thinking! Esp before I gt my pay! Plus, I am going to do some abs exercise as of tmr onwards. E bulge on my stomach is enough to make me hurl. No joke.

Ok. Super tired.

Take care.

Schedule.

2009-04-27T01:28:00.003+08:00

My schedule for next week:

Mon 12-3, 6-12
Tue 11-3, 6-12
Wed OFF. Going for pedicure w/ Tiffie.
Thu OFF. Going to Sentosa w/ KinkyKim, LunaticLyn & MucusKidShane HOPEFULLY.
Fri 12-3, 6-12
Sat 1230-11
Sun 12-3, 6-12

Btw, I'm starting as a full time as of 1st of May. & on tt same day, I'm going to start keeping fit. Srs, no joke. Need to lose my bulging tummy asap. Wish me luck.

Night peeps.

100% Silk.

2009-04-27T01:23:00.004+08:00

I <3 Warehouse.

I want tt super nice grey pants, their basics, their scarfs, their harems(!!!), their dresses & their 100% silk jumper/overalls. Silk is sex.

<3

P.S.: I am v much in love w/ harem pants though many think it's disgusting/ugly/fugly. Acc. to KingWN,harem pants are for peeps w/ oversized balls. Wtev it is, I still wanna buy a million pair of diff harem pants tyvm!!!!!

Peel Fresh.

2009-04-26T03:01:00.002+08:00

Hi peeps, I'm back from Redang.

Currently uploading e pics onto Facebook now. Anw, doubt I'll have time to blog out all e pics! So, watch out for e pics on Facebook!

Ugh. I'm super tan now & am starting to peel. E feeling ain't exactly gd! But, wtev!

Went out w/ LoonyLinus today. E guy went crazy on shopping (as usual) & ended up w/ like 5 tops, 1 bottoms & a pair of super nice shoes (from Zara, no less) in e span of 3 hrs? Super decisive! Haha. Oh anw, I have to blog abt this bimbo moment I had cus he asked me to. So anw, we were texting & discussing what movies to watch & he wanted to watch The International or Taken. So he was telling me e timings for The International & followed by this "or I dont mind watching 17 Again" followed by e timings & e timings for Taken. So I replied "TI or Taken" thinking tt he dont mind rewatching e Zac Efron show w/ me. To cut e long story short, I thought he watched 17 Again alr & dont mind watching it again w/ me which obviously was nt e case cus he haven't watch it. Omg. This sounds v complicated. If you dont understand this, nm! Cus I dont either. Can ask LoonyLinus to give you a live report, I think he'll be more than happy to. Oh & we had a decent dinner at Bakerzin! Love their wedges cus it comes w/ bacon bits & super nice caesar sauce. Ok. Talking abt this makes me hungry.

Ugh. Damn sien. It's 310am now & I'm still online. Supposed to meet CrappyKat & Alicia e Mousey for brows & to watch 17 Again (for real) before watching Star Awards tgt. Omg, so cheena!

Ok. Am going off aft I'm done w/ uploading e pics. Check out Facebook!

xoxo

Nuazling.

2009-04-20T19:02:00.002+08:00

Hi all.

Am leaving for Redang in 3 hrs & damn, I haven't even start to pack & yet I'm blogging.

Anw, am feeling excited alr. I'm going to nua on e beach for 3 days..... Go for spa..... Snorkel..... Relax..... Cont' to nua.....

Will update when I'm back! <3

)':

2009-04-18T03:55:00.005+08:00

UGH. STUPID SHOW!!!!! MADE ME CRY LIKE CRAZY.

P.S.: But aft all these drama, I'm ready to deal w/ you. Bring it.